Plans

I hate making plans. Deciding what to do. I always screw something up so I choose to stay out of that zone. Well my friends wanted to do something. I offered them to come to my house and we could order food and watch a movie or two. But I don't know what they want. And no one has really said yes or no to my plan. And now they both haven't answered my texts. I don't really wanna hang out anyway. Not in the mood. But I said I would, so if they both finally get their acts together I will hang out with them. All Ive done today is illegally download music, eat, and sleep. Theres not much else to do. I do wanna see them before I leave. They are two of my best friends and I love them, but they always get other people involved and it becomes a party. I'm not in the mood for that tonight. I really need some chill time to get myself in order. Some one to talk to and some one that I know is just there. And sometimes they have these crazy ideas. I love the ideas but my dad's never cool with them. He doesn't like me being out much. He loves it when I am home where he knows he can keep an eye on me. He is always so uptight about parents being around. He has to call or meet every parent before I go hang out with the person. The parent has to be home or be able to be reached. AHHH! Why don't I have a life?!

~SilverMoon