Mistakes

This weekend I made the biggest mistake of my life.

I tried weed.

I know it's not that huge a deal or anything to most people. But to someone who truly cares about me, it is. And I am starting to hate myself as I know I keep hurting him. And this time was probably the worst. I have lost his trust, I have lost everything. But he still loves me. And I still love him.
I was up last night. For most of the night. Thinking. I feel like such an awful person. I've made mistakes in the past, but none as big as this. I hurt the one person who actually cares about me, who tells the truth to my face, who keeps me safe, who does everything for me, and who loves me. I can never forgive myself.

Every single one of those stupid Taylor Swift songs... can't even begin to describe my feelings for this guy. I love him more then anyone will ever know.

~SilverMoon

Ps. If you read this... I love you <3