I Miss You

I miss him. A close friend. I really do. I was at camp and he would text me, and he was one of the few people I chose to respond to. Cause I missed him. He is always there when I need him. And I love that. I try my very hardest to be there for him too. Cause I respect him. He doesn't read my blog. He may never see this. But thats okay. I am gonna let the rest of you know how I feel.

He and I were texting. He was like "You were so caught up with camp, you didn't miss me." I froze. OF COURSE I missed him. I texted him in all my free time, wrote on his wall when I had a chance to get to a computer, thought about him. So I told him what he means to me. He told me I am regaining his trust. I let him know that if I never got it that would be okay cause he has mine. He questioned it. Asked why I still trusted him even after the situation and how he reacted.
I know why I trust him. And I told him. So now I will tell you.
I go out on a limb, trust him, cause I know what the pain feels like and Ive handled it before so I know I can do it again.
He promised he would never hurt me. Why promise? Things change. But I accepted his promise but I will not hold it against him if I do get hurt. I know he would never do it on purpose, but things happen.

On the other hand I get a text from a really close camp friend. She says "Why do I feel like this? Do you feel it too?". I thought for a second. Then my eyes started to sting with tears. I know what she means. That empty feeling I get every day. She and I got very close at camp and she means the world to me. I need her to keep me standing, and I know she needs me. I told her I would kiss her for eternity if that let me see her. She informed me that she really wants to kiss me as well. I love how we are on the same page. She and I are very alike and its nice.
I want to go to college with her. We have been talking about it. We want to be room mates. She says it would be 70% party, 30% work. I really hope it works out actually. Time spent with her is always the best. Amazing. She means the world to me and I think I need her in my life forever.

Well Ive been rambling and now I am getting sleepy. Goodnight!

~SilverMoon