Not Great

Lately I haven't been feeling great. I don't know why.
I just turned 16. I didn't do anything. I didn't want to. Why celebrate me? What did I do that was so great. Nothing. I'm just a body. Losing feelings. Disappearing.
But I don't want to go. Not this time.
Its scary you know. This feeling of losing yourself. You're here, then your gone. Your mind and soul. Gone. Your body stays, moving through time.
Thats what my depression feels like.
There is something though, this time, that brings me back.
He is wonderful and caring. I really do love him. So thank you.
But no one else knows. I am scared to tell. Scared for reactions. I thought I was okay. And on the outside I am. I don't want to be weak. I want to be strong. Powerful.

And stable. But I don't think I'll ever be.

~SilverMoon