Limits

I have hit my limit, I may explode. Things are happening all around me. And so I'm locking myself back in. People are scaring me. So I close my eyes. And hope for the best. The best has happened tonight. Shes still here. But what about me? Will I be? How much longer will I have to stay here?
I promised him forever... So I will be. In human form or in spirit. Forever.
But if I do go I know what will happen. Spirit will not be good enough. So here I am, wasting away into nothing. How would I go anyway. I want quick and painless. Pain is a weird thing. I love it at first... then it becomes old news. I hate it. But I do it again. It may just be the adrenalin that flows through my vanes.

Wow. I am really no longer sane. Whats wrong with me. I need answers. But I cant get those cause "I have to figure it out for myself". Stupid life. Stupid god. Stupid universe. GIVE ME THE ANSWERS!

~SilverMoon